giving endlessly

 “I want to give to you, not from what I can gain, but because I truly care about you.”
Telling someone how you feel does not hurt as much as not saying anything at all to that someone who is deeply in love with you.

"You are what you love. Not what loves you."

It’s easy for me to get carried away, and want to hold on to people I care for so intensely. I want ownership. I want them to be mine, always.
But of course, that doesn’t usually work out.
So I guess this is about letting go without loving any less.To love without expectations may very well be to give up love as aspired toward. That is, that if you are to truly love without any expectations at all, you must love enough to be willing to give that love up
bitterseeet pleasure.

universal experience

I'm providing my own, personal master list of painful music, which lists those songs with which I masochistically bombard myself when I'm feeling lonely or sad.On My Own", from Les Miserables -
The classic unrequited love song. I first listened to this song when I was a senior in high school and was, at the time, lost in the quagmire of what was my first experience that I can legitimately call "love". Every line was a stab to my heart, perfectly reflecting my own situation. Its accuracy was startling for me then, and remains so even now.
 "Feels Like Home", from Randy Newman's Faust -
This is obviously just a statement of my own personal opinion, but... BEST LOVE SONG EVER. This is a relatively plain, straightforward piece; lyrically simple, very light orchestration. Just two verses with a chorus after each. There's not even a bridge. But it's breathtaking. I'm so passionate about this song
.When She Loved Me", Sarah McLachlan (by Randy Newman) -
This is from the Toy Story 2 soundtrack, and in the movie it's about companionship, not a romance. But it's still an excrutiating tearjerker about not feeling loved.
"Losing My Religion", REM -
I'm not actually all that sure that this is about unrequited love, but it's always felt that way to me. Maybe lost love, or the process of losing it, would be closer... it's clearly love and pain, though, which is what makes it wallow-worthy
Ghost", Indigo Girls -
"The Mississippi's mighty, but it starts in Minnesota at a place where you can walk across with five steps down. And I guess that's how you started, like a pinprick to my heart, and at this point you rush right through me and I start to drown." Ouch. Emily Saliers really has a way with words
Romeo and Juliet", Indigo Girls (by Mark Knopfler) -
I like the lyrics to this song -- it's actually a Dire Straits song that the Girls covered -- but I've got to say it's Amy Ray's impassioned performance which has led me to love it so dearly..
Collecting You", Indigo Girls -
Another of Emily's songs..Also, she bemoans her "hairtrigger love and faulty spring". I think just about everyone, at some point, has fallen victim to their own over-eagerness to love.

the burden of love

I only want to share the burdens of being in love with the wrong person. Some may find this very common but it's really true that it happened to me.It just came that we know that were having a mutual understanding of our feelings but neither of us dares to admit it.

At that time, the pain in my heart was unbearable. I keep on asking myself, why is the person you love most the one who will hurt you the most too? Days passed by and although I still love him that much and I know he loves me too, I decided to forget him. But it was really hard to forget.

 wish I met you at the Right time and right place. No matter how much I wish though, my wish will never be granted. As you see, I fell in love at the wrong time and wrong place.

"If anyone here for any reason believe this man and woman should not be united, stand up or forever hold your peace."

wrong

wrong

wrong

wrong
I was born with the wrong sign
In the wrong house
With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme
On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique

Wrong Wrong

There's something wrong with me chemically
Something wrong with me inherently
The wrong mix in the wrong genes
I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means
It was the wrong plan
In the wrong hands
The wrong theory for the wrong man
The wrong eyes on the wrong prize The wrong questions with the wrong replies

Wrong

A Mom, a Blog, and the Life In-Between

A Mom, a Blog, and the Life In-Between

life in HD

Life sure is fickle. One minute you think things might be looking up, then the next minute you have no idea whats going on..

WOW!

That term applies to a couple of things..... One is that I'm able to type this today. In days past I haven't been able to get on Blogger due to my connection. But today the internet gods have granted me permission to type. The second is that I saw the movie Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. WOW! So, now that I can type...what to discuss???
why do i want to blog..cos im restless..in my mind..i feel.  dont know the answer to that one. will find out along the way i think. i hope. hope lies eternal in the human breast. swear, I write better blogs in my head before falling asleep than I do the next morning when I'm actually able to type them out .

....I've noticed that these last few years, and especially this one, that I've done a lot of inner thought. Here's what I've come up with so far....I am human, with feelings and thoughts. I am not a religious person, not affiliated with any religious group. This does not devoid me of having the same thoughts and emotions of anyone else. I am not afraid of doing things alone. I am content with my own company, but this doesn't mean I don't enjoy getting together with friends. I am extremely sarcastic, most people confuse that with bitchiness. This, in turn, keeps me from having 'normal' friendships. I am harsh. I shoot from the hip, and again, this keeps me from having the typical girlfriends that most women have. I love taking a nap.nad  i mostly lovve watchin movies..at least a movie a day.
I am powered by solar energy.I do way better on sunny days to get things done. But cloudy days are good for naps:))
I might be crazy, i might be not, it depends on who you ask! I have eclectic taste in everything...music, food, activities, home decor, tv, and people>>
I am hyper, and i can be lazzy. I have patience for most people, very limited patience for animals and no patience for certain people<
I miss lots of things from my past, but look forward to events of my future.
I have no regrets.
 I do not believe in taking advantage of family.

I am, at times, too trusting of people.
I do everything I can to help friends. I will give all I can, but usually get screwed.
I have many things I'd like to do, but don't forsee doing them.
I believe in past lives.

Some things I have a hard time letting go of.
I keep a lot of things deep inside. I'm into weird, childish things like fantasy books and movies. I believe there is another world within ours that we are either kept from seeing or just refuse to acknowledge.
I am many things, and nothing at the same time...

Life can go from 0 to overdrive in less than a day...lately my life has been just like that...not ours to reason why, ours but to do or die((:

Life is rapidly progressing into the digital age of HIDEF..high definition..or HD...either you can be HD ready or FULL HD...HA!! just learnt those terms...recently...and like everything else in life..there s not much of a difference between the two..to me at least...its mostly always a choice between the Devil and /or the Deep Blue!!

to be?

mine not to question why...mine but to do or die!!

me blog!

I became fascinated with idea of blogging after acquainting myself with blogs written by other individuals on topics that I found interesting. Some of them were funny, some were revealing, some were introspective, and some were downright abusive.
The process and release I get from writing is essential to my mental well being. I decided exactly one week ago that I was going to try my hand at blogging.love that I can be honest, passionate, moody, anonymous. Whatever I feel I can publish, and sure enough a few people will read what I have said. I use my blog as a sounding board.

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